Friday, March 30, 2007
Hey, that's ME!!!
Abandonment issues can show up in relationships:
(1) You need excessive reassurance that the other person is not leaving.
(2) You greatly fear being set loose or rejected.
(3) You choose folks who are unstable or not there: out of work, substance abusers, commitment phobes, criminals, workaholics, gamblers, people who live in other cities,the highly ambivalent, chronically depressed, mentally ill
You feel tense, lonely, and uneasy when your partner is away even briefly.
(1) You need excessive reassurance that the other person is not leaving.
(2) You greatly fear being set loose or rejected.
(3) You choose folks who are unstable or not there: out of work, substance abusers, commitment phobes, criminals, workaholics, gamblers, people who live in other cities,the highly ambivalent, chronically depressed, mentally ill
You feel tense, lonely, and uneasy when your partner is away even briefly.
Sunday, March 25, 2007
Tired
I'm tired of being tired. So much effort for so little result.
you sound like a very very passionate man, and whomever gets to keep you in
their heart is a very lucky man, happy sunday to you as well.
that's a message from someone who doesn't know me. too bad that anyone who gets to know me finds me insufferable. i'm finding myself pretty insufferable right now too.
you sound like a very very passionate man, and whomever gets to keep you in
their heart is a very lucky man, happy sunday to you as well.
that's a message from someone who doesn't know me. too bad that anyone who gets to know me finds me insufferable. i'm finding myself pretty insufferable right now too.
Monday, March 12, 2007
Uh.....
Something is terribly, terribly wrong. I'm feeling suicidal. I had all sorts of fantasies last night of ways of just ending it. I spent a bunch of time staring at a serrated knife that I'd used to cut open a dragon fruit. Also, a bottle of ibuprofen that I just bought was pretty attractive.
Doug was a pussy and didn't come to the performance, and I'm really tired. Like, just exhausted by the prospect of hoping for romantic love in my life. However, I'm concerned by the fact that this leads to me thinking of making like a Christmas tree or spraying blood all over my leaky kitchen or going all grey and doughy in my bathtub or becoming severely anti-inflamed via a bottle of Advil.
I should maybe talk with someone. Or maybe seriously think of mood stabilising drugs.
Geh.
Doug was a pussy and didn't come to the performance, and I'm really tired. Like, just exhausted by the prospect of hoping for romantic love in my life. However, I'm concerned by the fact that this leads to me thinking of making like a Christmas tree or spraying blood all over my leaky kitchen or going all grey and doughy in my bathtub or becoming severely anti-inflamed via a bottle of Advil.
I should maybe talk with someone. Or maybe seriously think of mood stabilising drugs.
Geh.
Saturday, March 03, 2007
Faaaaaaaaalllliiiiiinnnnnng!
I'm falling for that man.
We went out for dinner last night after a bit of kerfuffle (mostly inside my own mind, and I later found out, inside his). He thanked me for my patience with him, and told me that he's fearful and finds himself thinking that he feels nothing for me when we're apart, but then sees me and wants to nibble on my ears and that our connection is very strong. And that I would be fine to take to the mayor's house. He says that in most cases, he would have run in the other direction by now. He mentioned some of this baggage. I feel....that it's really worth it. He's very wonderful. It's also nice to know that I'm not the only one who is terrified.
It's curious that I keep falling for charming boys who really like me but are terrified of relationships. Grant. Sasan. Jay. Now this feller. What's that about?
We went out for dinner last night after a bit of kerfuffle (mostly inside my own mind, and I later found out, inside his). He thanked me for my patience with him, and told me that he's fearful and finds himself thinking that he feels nothing for me when we're apart, but then sees me and wants to nibble on my ears and that our connection is very strong. And that I would be fine to take to the mayor's house. He says that in most cases, he would have run in the other direction by now. He mentioned some of this baggage. I feel....that it's really worth it. He's very wonderful. It's also nice to know that I'm not the only one who is terrified.
It's curious that I keep falling for charming boys who really like me but are terrified of relationships. Grant. Sasan. Jay. Now this feller. What's that about?
