The Living Centrifuge

Mattie: Vancouver! says: (11:03:35 AM)
should I invite him to a movie in the "you hug well" e-mail?
x says: (11:17:24 AM)
when was the date?
x says: (11:17:39 AM)
i'd say no
x says: (11:17:42 AM)
take it easy
x says: (11:17:54 AM)
see how he responds to a pretty obvious "i like you" email
Mattie: Vancouver! says: (11:18:05 AM)
ah.  
Mattie: Vancouver! says: (11:18:08 AM)
that's true....
Mattie: Vancouver! says: (11:21:02 AM)
okay.  I was just like you're good, I hope you feel better (he's sick) and we'll talk soon.
x says: (11:21:22 AM)
sounds grand
Mattie: Vancouver! says: (11:21:57 AM)
mrrgh.
x says: (11:22:33 AM)
mrrgh?
Mattie: Vancouver! says: (11:23:02 AM)
I have much more than I say at any one time.
x says: (11:23:45 AM)
isn't that always the way?
Mattie: Vancouver! says: (11:23:53 AM)
like what I really want to say is let's go see a movie.  you're really cute.  the skin on your face felt nice against my lips.  you're terribly beautiful and effusive and that's exciting to me.  that you're not "too cool"
x says: (11:24:35 AM)
save that and give it to him after date #3
x says: (11:24:40 AM)
he'd like that in time, i suspect
x says: (11:24:53 AM)
it's a bit on the too much side now
x says: (11:25:08 AM)
mainly because it's only a part of you
x says: (11:25:20 AM)
the part of you, mattie, capable of tremendous feeling and expression
x says: (11:25:38 AM)
but it doesn't leave room for him to know the you, mattie, capable of tremendous independence and personal drive
x says: (11:25:40 AM)
ya know?
x says: (11:25:51 AM)
so someone only seeing a part could get needlessly spooked
Mattie: Vancouver! says: (11:25:56 AM)
aha.
x says: (11:25:56 AM)
but the whole is so damn good
Mattie: Vancouver! says: (11:26:05 AM)
you're lovely.
x says: (11:26:11 AM)
i adore you
x says: (11:26:34 AM)
you're a great combination of give 'em all you've got and self-determined power
Mattie: Vancouver! says: (11:28:22 AM)
wow, thanks!
x says: (11:28:56 AM)
i speak 'em as i see 'em