Saturday, March 18, 2006
Back to This
Right, so it was interesting. A friend of mine said I have a moat around me. I'm like that castle in Switzerland on that mountain, which is beautiful, but very difficult to approach, and you go "ooh!" from afar, but it's a bitch to get there. That's me. Friendly, but with a moat around me. Looksies no feelsies.
The boy I've been sleeping with since January is departing for three months to Spain, and then will probably not come back here. Now, the thing is this: I'm not that interested in him. Well, he's really good at sex. But I don't want to spend my life with him. But he seems to like me, and that makes me feel good. Like something about having someone like me more than other people makes me feel like there might be something about me that is desireable. Maybe. I think it's that that's making me sad. I sound like a co-dependent and neurotic actor. Awful.
We rehearsed more of the performance art piece today. I love it! I can't wait to have the full piece at my disposal. I hope I can get a video recording of it.
The boy I've been sleeping with since January is departing for three months to Spain, and then will probably not come back here. Now, the thing is this: I'm not that interested in him. Well, he's really good at sex. But I don't want to spend my life with him. But he seems to like me, and that makes me feel good. Like something about having someone like me more than other people makes me feel like there might be something about me that is desireable. Maybe. I think it's that that's making me sad. I sound like a co-dependent and neurotic actor. Awful.
We rehearsed more of the performance art piece today. I love it! I can't wait to have the full piece at my disposal. I hope I can get a video recording of it.
// posted by MSR @ 11:31 PM 
