The Living Centrifuge

I just had sex with the hot asian. The fellow who broke my 1.5 year draught, and now, the one who was my first after the breakup. It wasn't very good. He's so terribly beautiful. And he's a very nice fellow, and he turns me on. I just think that maybe I'm not very good at sex. Or maybe I just can't get into it when there's this pressure to come. It's very difficult to convince boys that I just like the intimacy and the feeling of the whole thing. Or maybe I need the assurance of a trusting relationship. I don't know. I just left feelng exhausted and a little sick. Somewhat disgusted with my body, and also uninterested in sex. We'll see how I feel tomorrow - see if this disinterest lasts.