The Living Centrifuge

I had relations with the Persian a couple of nights ago. It was very enjoyable. I think a lot of my issues about sex are beginning to fall away. I was still a little removed from the whole thing, in that I was observing him a little, but was much more comfortable in myself than is usually the case in a first time thing. He was very passionate, and zealous, which has its advantages.

However, as with Massage Boy, I find that the relations confirm that I really like Ben, and that he's a good fit. The intimacy with Ben is very straightforward and simple and most importantly, honest. It's unembellished, it's just intimacy, efficiently, in the positive meaning of the word - as Barbara uses it: to mean that it is essence, and therefore communicates most effectively. This might be something for me to think about in his general relations. Efficient, and only what is needed. I miss him, and in our conversations, he's been pretty responsive. I think the key (a good key for me to cultivate generally, actually), is just for me to do my work, and enjoy his company.

I look forward to December.