The Living Centrifuge

Thank God for my Italian paranoia.

JoeyJoe, some random Manhunt Dot Net guy that contacted me when I first got here, then wouldn't show me his picture, and who I subsequently removed from my contact list, because really, who needs such self-important idiots in his life? Anyway, from time to time he contacts me, and I'm cordial, but reserved, because he reminds me of Nick at his worst, which I feel is a good thing to avoid.

Last night he contacted me on MSN, and asked me to give him my full name because he was judging a drag queen competition at a gay club (for my feelings on gay clubs, see my August post on this subject), and would put me on the guest list. Keep in mind that this fellow is an electronic spectre at this point, so I said that I was not in the habit of giving my full name to strange men. Upon which he turned into a snarling screeching infant, told me I was stupid, and if I wanted to be an actor in this town he was someone I shouldn't piss off because he is a "gay celebrity" (!). He's the first person that I've blocked on messenger.

Wow. When people don't get what they want, or when you don't give into their bullshit, they turn violent. This is why I often give people what they want to hear - it's much safer. However, in the Merton book, he talks about the reactions of the Curia (a judging body in the Catholic Church), and that often one knows one is on the right path if they are harsh with you. Moral uprightness means adversity. I like this. It makes me feel like I can more strongly follow a moral path in my life. Just knowing that strong reactions will be inherent - not something to be avoided, and so I might as well do the right thing since there is no question of struggle. It will almost always be there.